Diversity Rules Magazine

12|Diversity Rules Magazine | July 2021 Amazon Trail - Con't from page 11 Most people who grow up gay are inevitably strang- ers to balanced lives. You're proud and scared. You'd be er learn to run. You're out prowling, obsessed with seduc on, or seal yourself in your closet un l you can't breathe. You might reject your true nature to live a pretend life. Some of us can't take the op- posing choices we're faced with and exit en rely. Love too o en cancels itself out because we're ap- parently terrible at choosing partners who are good for us—un l we find the one who leads us to solid ground. I once tended to walk on the least stable sand emo- onally. We counted last night and so far, have come up with at least eighteen moves I made in my life's hike. Many of them were down to breakups or new loves. One to a death, another to moving to the groovy west. Wherever I went there'd be a therapist to help me recover my equilibrium, an acupuncturist to get my qi going again. My sweetheart and I try to find balance in our diets, but deep down we agree that means potatoes and ice cream. She abhors vegetables, but will cook some under duress. I seldom coerce her. I've had ver go, nnitus and a panic disorder since I was a preschooler. All three come and go, and signal asymmetry of mind or body. Psychiatric disorders, including anxiety, can cause dizziness—which I never knew un l researching this piece. I've managed to add hallux rigidus to my physical problems, mean- ing I can't flex my big toes without pain. The docs want to fuse them. Back problems send misery into my legs, but I have no interest in robots with scalpels messing with my spine. I've always wanted to outgrow the travails of youth. Now I have, and it turns out that the body wears out as the mind wises up. Where is the balance in that? .Diversity Rules Magazine Wants You! Are you a writer, musician, poet, or other type of cre- ative person looking for a venue to express yourself in but haven't been able to garner the attention you want? Diversity Rules Magazine wants to hear from you! Showcase yourself and your talent in front of a di- verse audience each month through the online digital magazine as well as the website. Contact the editor today and find out how to be part of Diversity Rules Maga- zine and get yourself fea- tured monthly or as a guest feature!! Want to advertise and/or subscribe? Head to the website to find out how to do both! diversityrulesmagazine@gmail.com (607) 435.1587

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